Good morning Lori,
Having my morning coffee with you again, got about five minutes here, LOL.
I think that to live in a household like this is just plain old abusive to the weaker family members. Change now or your kids will have the same households for their kids, would you want your grandkids going through all this mental torture? I know you probably feel helpless here hummingbird, but you know what, it is taking everyone of you right now to make up that family unit, it is taking everyone of you right now to call your house home and as unfortunate as it sounds, it is taking everyone of you to keep the choas going also. Don't react to them, Lori has a good point here.
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Life gaurantees a chance NOT a fair shake
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FIND a way EVERY day to lighten the load of another
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Thanks all for the good advice and I have been reading it and considering it all. When it all started I blamed it on his drinking.He stopped drinking when our daughter was born he also gave up smoking when our son was 2. So he does not smoke nor drink. He says he feels these periods of extreme agitation. He says he wants to destroy something and he has many times .We have replaced many doors also belongings.I had a vase once I simply loved and was not replaceable as I found it at a yard sale. he broke it when he was feeling his MOOD. I call them rages he calls it agitation.All we do is get out of his way.He is terrible managing money.What I notice most is the moods where he seems determined to start a fight and even if I don't say anthing he carries on alone. My son used to blame it on me because I fought back or talked back when he was verbally abusive.I guess he thought if i kept quiet that he would stop .he talks to the kids about his bad behavior.his heart is in the right place I guess that one reason I try to stay.Sometimes it gets me down so bad .Its like he feels bad and isn't going to stop till he takes with him. I think he has this deep down resentment for his mom and takes it out on me.
Goodnatured I took this from a post of yours(They have been wonderful and know that if I snap and chew their heads off, not to take it personally) this is much like my situation. How can you not take iot personally. My hubby starts yelling at me calling me stupid ,how can i not take it personally.My daughter this morning everything I said to her she snapped at me. She snapped and was mean to her sister.Her horse died the other day and I started to put my arms around her and said I was sorry and she jerked away.I went off and cried cause thats the way she treats me all the time. I think she hates me.She is always rude to me and sanppes at me.It really hurts.I try not to take these things against me personally but it doea hurt .I have gotten a thick skin mostly where my husband is concerned but my daughter's attitude really hurts me. If I try to talk to her she just brushes emoff and tell me to be quiet.That make me madder than anything for my daughter to tell ME to shut up! I got so mad at her one day for saying that ,That I screamed at her so loudly my throat was sore and scared my younger daughter into tears.
I'm confused. Yesterday I was being paid to post in the pub.Today I am not.What gives. The credit and insurance forums were paid to post in the pub but the mortage ans debt were not. I had them all figured out and now I am really confused.
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